baby very lame

his office has just shifted to great world city so everyday during his free time he will go down walk walk. once he went to cold storage to find food and asked if i want any chocolate [usually he forbids me from eating cuz i am already very heaty]. i told him to get normal milk chocolate for me. he say that one not nice and asked if i want macadamia one. after i said ok he say dont want buy liao. in the end when i came home i saw macadamia chocolate on the kitchen table.

everytime he see me buy clothes online he will nag and nag and nag about how lousy their quality is. like 10 pieces 10 pieces all lousy quality. then the other time when i was about to go get cig from econ he asked if i bought anything online. if no he dont have to open letter box.
when i buy he will nag. when i never buy he will ask if i got buy, got he open letter box. bth him.

i know he cares. dont want me to get too heaty, dont want me to get "cheated" by pictures of clothes.

love you baby!

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yesterday we went parkway parade cuz he mistaken basement of parkway as basement of tampines mall -.-
we wanted to get fried chicken chop from shi lin [from tamp] but we already parked car and was walking in parkway.. in the end we settled for central [some hongkong food i think]. seriously i feel when we got money, nothing is expensive. dont you think alot of things are all over priced [even clothes i buy online]?

by the time we reach home it was 9pm.
ok i know its not late to most of you but normally baby and i dont go out after work.
either we are too tired or that we ve got mahjong appointment. [haha appointment]

did i tell you guys? i just lost $140.00 during mahjong. ok not me, it was baby :x
baby and my mahjong money all share one. sometimes i lose he pay sometimes he lose i pay. just like sometimes he win i take i win he take [but mostly all i take :x] haaaaaaaa.
we have the same passion and that is mahjong.
when i jio mahjong only left 1 place to play, i know baby wants to play but i also want to play. since i love him so much i always let him play. haha as if he dont love me then never let me play. but aiya. sometimes i jio until overflow legs also my fault.. so just let him play i watch can already.
watching can be fun. but not for long. lol.

this is a daily life entry.
and this kind of blogging style abit not like me? lol.
i just feel like talking and baby is in the meeting so here i am.

oh my colleague just said "you eat alot hor" LOL..................
eat so much how can not be fat you tell me.

k laaaaaaa i need a puff.

i am watching kang xi

that i cannot blog. i keep laughing until i want to cry.
xiao s is too funny already.

hahhahahhaa..........

i not playing tonight!

im still waiting for baby to come and we are not gonna mj tonight.
so that means i can blog more. :)

talk to you guys myself later.
meanwhile do miss me!

xchange!

i was chatting with jolene o when she told me my blog's xchange has my blog link. eh happy lei. lol.



more money more money!

OH i sms shane [the guy who owes me 40 and owes mantha 60] yesterday. he said his friends still owe him 400+ mj money so he cant pay us now. what your friends owe you is your problem. and we already agreed to play cash how come now become credit? if we always play together and if we are good friends, i wont even ask you to pay me back. but i have only seen you.. twice.
you got no money? i think your gf has.
aiyaaaaaaaa.......... so pointless.

stupid people think stupidly, do stupid things and say stupid things.

sherrine sucks! "i dont remember blogging that. you can log on to my blog now. got proof then talk" then when kay kay reads out, she just say "i dont deny im talking about you" WTH....... when i saw her blog i could slap her face. like slap the pictures. lol.......

pointless entry!

many many me.

we went sakae sushi just now. waste of money.
mj-ed yesterday..




bought this balloon thingy to play. 24 inside i played 1 only and blew few for cyn's son and gave them the rest.
kids are so adorable.











from bodyshop sale. 12.90 only.

didnt watch s factor but i saw that kay kay won.
see. i am so smart. haha.

ok cj 7.

i am HERE!

whole afternoon i wanted to blog but couldnt.. now forget everything already -.-
anyway today i choose sleep over mj. ha.. plus i want pei baby :)

i have so many photos but they are either at my house or his laptop.
my com is too slow his mouse is not working. so i become very lazy.





my cute hammies gave birth but babies all eaten up or died.
now the uglier mummy hammie [the one which gave birth before to 6 babies] has babies again. as in gave birth for the 2nd time.

i hate people who got money but dont want to pay up [for mahjong].
if you really got no money, not even enough to eat then its fine. but if you got the money and we already said to play cash, i dont understand why you cannot pay up 100? base is 600 pls. -.-
im not close to you at all so i dont mind anything. but how come you everything also can say and do like you never thought of how we would feel? anyway i dont think anyone understand. only baby and mantha. i hope you see this which i doubt so. i told baby i'll sms that person tomorrow and he told me to let him know how. if i say no use he say for me :x

i'll blog when i remember what i want to say.

touched

baby said he boiled green tea soup and herbal soup for me. herbal soup is for my lungs and pimples then tomorrow he will be boiling shit soup for me to shit..
then he say green tea soup i can share with my friends.

cannot tell you how much i appreciate my baby. he's treating me so well that i dont know what to do in return to let him know that i love him more. [cuz he will say he loves me more]

ohhhhhhhhhh goodness.

i <3 baby.

you know it

for the whole of this week baby work from home.. damn shiok i tell you. but maybe towards the end of the week he will suffer. like now and tomorrow. lol.

i was on leave on monday and mc yesterday. pls dont ask me whether shiok or not. i only have unpaid leave and mcs all cannot claim. -.-'''
shiok or not? to have annual leave? -.- and if you dont use your leave you can either bring forward to next year or they pay you cash? shiok hor. -.-
once you she de everything also can.

baby has taught me so much about mahjong rules [and i taught mantha] but he didnt teach me how to play. he was laughing while watching me play.. evil.
but i was happy la, that he watched me play. :) [he never before ok!]

ok promise i'll blog tonight. miss me people!

help me click on my nuffnang!

2nd entry

it took me some time to upload this photo. so im only posting other pictures when i really have the time to.. ok actually i can wait now but i dont want to -.-
i ve aged so much that i dont think any guy will want me. except for him.
yes im being thick skin but its just what im think..

im gonna say something very stunning.






























































im his most pretty gf :x
if he allows, i will post all his ex gfs' pictures. they are not all ugly you know. i even thought one of his ex gf was pretty..
ok super evil.

there are alot of things that i refrain myself from saying here.
sometimes its because i want to give him face and other times, give myself some face.
thats how people do their things, people with ego.
i put down my ego to tell you all these maybe you dont understand.. ok kid, people with ego works like that, just learn :x

not for you. only for you.

just finished mj at cynthia's place.. really hate people who throw chips :/
anyway im not working tomorrow. was thinking to work half day but well.. sleep is important. hey, its not that money is no its just that.. maybe i wont even have the mood to work.

i miss how.. you used to go to the movies with me.
i miss how.. you used to wait for me while i go shopping.
i miss how.. you used to bring me go drinking.
i miss how.. you used to cook for me even when i dont want you to.
i miss how.. you used to hug me to sleep.
i miss how.. you used to pei me eat whatever i want to.
i miss how.. you used to blog about how much you love me.
i miss how.. theres really too many to say.. really.

you're gonna see somthing which you have seen

在东京铁塔 第一次眺望
看灯火模仿 坠落的星光
我终於到达 但却更悲伤
一个人完成 我们的梦想

你总说 时间还很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天 就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上 张扬过哀伤
那是种多么 寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙 让我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆绑

你没说 你也会软弱 需要依赖我
我就装不晓得 自由移动 自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着
你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰
你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

previously when i blogged this, it was because it was really touching.
now.. its because thats how im feeling.
previously i said it wasnt me not my relationship.
now.. its me its my relationship.

i hate how.. im always a bad girlfriend.
i hate how.. i cannot give in a little bit more.
i hate how.. my ego is so huge.
i hate how.. i change my mind so fast.
i hate how.. i miss you yet cannot touch you.
i hate how.. petty, possessive and insensitive i am.
i hate how.. i betrayed you twice.
i hate how.. i cant make you trust me again.
i hate how. i cry and cry but yet you cannot feel me.

i have been a better friend than a girlfriend.
i buy things for my friends just to.. tell them that i love them. because i love surprises so i surprise them. its nothing big or expensive but still..
i havent seen him for 2-3 days and i didnt even buy a single thing for him. i know he dont need anything but sometimes its just the thought that counts.
i didnt blog when we quarrel because i know if i were to blog i will surely say all his bad stuffs. now that im blogging openly that we are at the "down" side of our relationship is because i know its entirely my fault.

people who know me [and him], know that he's someone who is very da nan ren. he apologised and i still go.. you know?
he is the first bf i change for, first i give in so much that people around me dont even recognise me. i used to be a da nv ren and all my exs gave in to me. im not saying that i treat him better. i just want everyone to know that i love him alot. more than any bf i ever had. i know how you gonna say i always say this when i with this or that bf. but people who know me will know what im talking about..

i love freedom but i love him more.
im not talking about the freedom to go clubbing and meet new guys, or go out with my guy friend.
im talking about.. the freedom to do what i want that is not betraying him.
i nearly go clubbing but i thought i didnt want to disappoint him again.
i thought that.. if he were to go clubbing i will explode.
i just want him to trust me again but i know that trust just cannot be gained easily.
even after 1 year where i didnt do anything to betray him, its not enough to gain his trust. because i did it once i did it twice.

can you forgive me?
can you trust me again?
can we be like how we used to be?

最幸福的事

你撑着雨伞 借我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失

泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 流在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事


可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
才慢慢认识 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识 是最幸福的事

我对不起你

manthalumbu

its all mantha and me.
i forgot when we played with sc when we played with her friend. so its anyhow one, the arrangement.






i look like some ghost down here





we were trying to.. copy some people. lol..


can see she want to laugh out. i am so cui [my make up from morning til night 2am]. lol. i even go redo my make up after that but we didnt take anymore pictures -.- too engrossed in our conversation already.







the 2nd picture i was trying to use my tongue touch her tongue -.-


i hate skinny people






this is super funny.
actually theres this picture where both of us carry 1 hong zhong [mahjong] but i too cui i dont let her post. plus another one where we both had fringe flap on. dont let her post she really never post. lol. good to bully :x

anyway i very long never see her liaozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz :/

go to -

big shopping bag and support my friend!

if you like just buy! its online shopping era. pretty clothes are for sharing.
and im nice! i share! haa.

go check them out, you wont regret :)
anyway its just clicking of your mouse only. why not?

alamak.. i dont nag already. go see, go go.

love

626

i was telling baby that g and sc play soccer.. just nice his friend ask him to support him. now waiting for baby to (re)start only :x
what kind of gf am i man.. support bf play.. :/

watch this!! ON your speaker and off your light.



okok! few pictures only. you guys should be able to know why theres only a few.. see first.











i was not wearing contact lens. haaaa

okok im gonna go watch s factor on you tube.
love you guys!

tell me u miss me

[this picture reminds me of the older days where.. ppl girls take pictures from the top. im young at heart ok.]

i uploaded 3 pictures when they were playing mahjong. tried to upload the rest but it took too long to load so i closed it..

have to wait til when mantha passes me her thumbdrive or when she blogs then i'll grab from her blog
went dbl o with teresa on sat. only cam whoring pictures nothing else. i'll upload them when i get my cable and when teresa upload hers from her digi cam.

what else? actually nothing much.
just that bf and i didnt meet for one week already..

bo liaoz entry. liaoz liaozz liaozzz

last night played mj with mantha and her friend+friend's friends.
sometimes its so weird, like they noob and they duno we can bao them they just carry on play like nothing happened.. but aiya.. we went her house so she say what jiu what lor..

i have never eaten marche before.
big deal meh? -.-'''

after that mantha sent me home and i think it was 1+am when we reach my place. we slacked downstairs until 5+am. dont know how many times talk until she want to cry and i want to cry. anyway after bathing and all it was 6am. 7.10am woke up to prepare for work and here i am............

later i'll ask mantha to bring cable for her phone when shes coming over my place. hopefully can post the photos tonight.

falling asleep..

night everyone

i am going to mj! miss me! [because i wont have time to blog afterwards]

love..

morning!

its thursday! tomorrow's gonna be friday which is play day~~
later im meeting mantha later.
and we are either gonna mahjong or go slack.

OH i tell you. body shop having sale!
spent $90 last night. im gonna get more if i can cuz anyway i use their products.
and cb i tell you. that time bought 1 body scrub for 52.90 i think. yesterday i saw it at 32.90............................... i'll go get it like tomorrow or what. !@#$%^&*()

okok i'll nag later.
[my pictures are all stucked inside my phone bcuz i have no cable]

:'(

im having a very very bad day.. i should have taken mc. or unpaid leave.
i screwed things up and got myself hurt.

i used to have someone for me to whine to and to agree with me that my colleagues suck.
now i dont.

its because im feeling down thats why everything is not going my way.

wanted to go sheesha with mantha but im really really tired.......................................

friend or foe

why are you even in my blog? since i didnt ask you here and you want to be here, then see all you want. when i told you [about you] in your face, why didnt you call me crazy? or isit that because i blog about you here, you cannot hook up my friends anymore thats why you are unhappy [or even angry]?

recently i didnt blog about you. did you click on all my archives?
did you have nothing to do that you want to read all the entries? or what?

nobody likes you. be glad that my bf still befriend you.
although we always laugh at you, but we are just laughing.
you dont have to get pissed off because we are laughing at you infront of my gfs.
want face? you already have none. they are my friends and of course i told them about you already. be it good or bad.

tell everyone. how many people you borrowed money from and didnt return. how much in total?

-.-

there are friends who will always be there. they are just a phone call away.
i appreciate i have one.

yesterday

i played 2 person mahjong with mantha last night. SUPER lame i tell you. we laughed until peng [super tempting to put a 'z' behind the peng] and we smoked like crazy. we were so lame that when we were listening we told each other. super friendly kind. but we played money. 5 cents 10 cents. HAHAHAHAHA.
and from what baby said, the way we played was totally wrong. LOL.
but we super enjoy. thats enough

and today we are most probably going to mahjong again..
OH just then i remember i still owe sc 50bucks for last night's mahjong that i haven transfer. any kind soul willing to donate money to me?
i'll take sexy pictures for you. HAHAHAHAHHAA
baby was saying he hates xiaxue because she used to take sexy pictures and post on her blog. and then she wanted a new camera so she asked people to donate money to her so she can buy a better camera to take even sexier photos.

today i talk abit weird. like one piece one piece. i need to sleep i feel like vomitting i feel like shitting. LOL. must be the beer.
oh oh we bought 12cans of 500ml amsterdam for $26.90? cool. cheap i guess.
the cheapest beer i know of is anchor at $9.90/6 cans but its.. 300ml? those normal can drink size. and we bought 2 packets of carrots for our hammies.
i bought milk for myself and baby wants me to buy so he can feed hammies with milk -.-

did i mention we went turf club for bbq steamboat? when it was at marina south it was like $10.00 or $12.00 per pax? now its $18.00/pax -.-

everytime i continue to mahjong after baby stopped, he wont go to bed.. no matter what he will wait for me and sometimes i think he's crazy.. but i know its because he loves me that "lang pa" lang. :)

pls ignore the previous post

the baby hamster who was bullied by mother/siblings.









both the front legs were swollen..
and he/she was alive when baby took all the photos.


now look below.








already dead.
baby left him/her for me to see after my work -.-'''''''''''''''



the other day we played mahjong at a guy's place. his name starts with S and i forget his gf's name. lol.




i know my head looks big beside hers. but what can i do! shes so much smaller than me.
i look like a giant beside her :/

anyway bf and i are ok already. thank you guys! :)
there are friends who will always be there when you need somebody. even when we seldom talk, she will give me a call to ask if im okay..
and there are friends who will never be there.. even when you speak to her about your problems she just ignore.

alright. im waiting for siewchoo and gladys to come for mahjong. :)